Giving yourself permission

Listening to TED talks always inspires me amazingly.
I think more then anything it inspires me to be the best me I can be.
Not for anyone else or not because one "should", just because the people talking passionately about what they are passionate about, makes me feel passionate about, well, just me.
That seems like a weird thought, but in the end it isn´t, is it?!
When we are able to be passionate about ourselves and the things we do, our lives completely change.
It doesn´t matter at all what our lives are about. They still change and always to the better.

I can make an amazingly long list of things I am passionate about. And this changes all the time. While many things remain the same.
And suddenly I think: YES!
Allow yourself to be the best person you can be - for whatever that is worth and for whatever that means.
Give yourself persmission.
And then anything and everything can happen. Independent of what you thought yesterday about what could happen.
This is freedom.

And one more thought:
Random moments and random people happen to us all the time.
Smell the cheese. See the signs.
I still look back to the fateful meeting I was attending, when I first heard that my father was ill and in hospital. He never came home afterwards and passed away 4 months later.
But is it this moment, the call, that I remember?
No.
It is a colleague who I hardly knew, who left the company soon after, who asked me about my stigmata. I had always seen it, but never knew others could.
Since then, every time I am energized, I see it and smile and think of him.
Random people.
Change your life.
Thank you.

Es geht was weiter...

I can now safely stop wondering if whatever it is I am going through, inside and outside, is a phase or not.
Who knows?! Who cares?!
But - it is great to see how, when you get into the flow, about yourself, things just move along totally smoothly and amazingly well.
I am so in awe of flow.
I used to think it is related to writing, but now I see it is a general principle.
And the flow can be just within you and within your thoughts and it WILL have an outside effect.
To all "nay-saysers": You do not believe it because you haven´t experienced it. Everyone who has experienced it has no doubt.

Other things....

It´s been a very quiet and exciting time the last week or two since I haven´t been writing on this blog (much).
I haven´t been writing otherwise either.
Not at all.
Zero.
Zich,
Guess what?
So what?! - that is how I truely feel.
I am really amazed and thankful.
I have finally taken the time and determination - and the help of this blog and many supporters - to write.
And realized, that wekk, maybe, possibly....no, no, this is absolutely the wrong way of putting it!
Let me start that sentence again: I have realized, that I love to have great ideas of/on books. And I have them all the time. I even dreamt an action thriller revolving around an elevator!
But - this doesn´t mean I want to actually write the books.
because, quite frankly, I don´t.
Maybe this will change.
But now I can pretty safely say, that the reason I haven´t written in all these years, not to mention decades, is because I simply didn´t really want to.
Life can be so simple.
I just always found it so hard to accept.
That life can be so simple.
So I have been (re-)discovering what it is that I really want to be doing daily.
Not what I should be or not what will necessarily make me a living.
It´s been such a - surprise - quiet ride!

So, friends and fans, stay tuned.
Because I have also discovered, that I enjoy this blog and sometimes want to say something.
And by all means I will.
After all: I DID name the blog also "writing about other things...".

It´s strange...

It´s strange.
I just do not have the desire to write.
I have all these great book ideas and these great story-lines. I still think of them occasionally, but I just do not feel I want to actually write any part of them.
At least not now.
Right now, I feel I want to do lots of different things, which I am actually doing.
Strangely I do not feel at all like I want to or am lamenting about doing or not doing anything.
I feel like I am doing exactly what I want to be doing.
Strange.
But, guess what?! Great!

Writing about not-writing

I wanted to write, that maybe I should rename my blog, which would also reflect phases of non-writing. But then, this is what this whole blog is about. The struggle between writing and not writing.

I just read somewhere that writing begets writing.
SO true!
A friend of mine sent me a link, which is meant to help you challenge yourself on writing a certain amount of words a day, 6 days a week. So clever.
And so typical me to be all excited about the prospect and "need" some outside "stimulus" to then continue with something I claim is what I want.

I need to think more about what I want.
Or maybe not.
Maybe I just need to think less and write more.
Hm.